Have you ever felt like a fish out of water? As if you can't breathe and need to come up for air? Do you ever feel different to everyone and everything thing around you? In varying degrees and diverse circumstances, perhaps like You, I've felt this many times over.
One morning I awoke from a heavy dream, a glimpse of reality from my early twenties. I'd just arrived home to my family, after a year traveling the world, as my University of Life! They were eager to listen to my adventures and so I began to share stories of wonderful places, sacred spaces and beautiful faces..., but after just a short while, everyone seemed to be looking at me blankly, as if I were speaking another language. I stopped and suggested we had a cup of tea and cake - good 'ole English tradition, to bring the comfort of familiarty! They asked if I had photos and so I brought out a few from the dry Red Centre of Aboriginal Australia to the lush green mountains of Sumatra's jungle. With their encouragement, I briefly told tales of my many experiences, but very soon they were looking at me with glazed eyes, as if I were from some future time and they weren't able to grasp the concepts of my journey. 'Another cup of tea, dear' my Mother perked up, bringing everyone back to the ease of ordinary. I went quiet, not knowing whether to continue or not, trying to sense what was happening. I knew it was difficult to relate to experiences that were outside of your own world, but being one who is always interested in people and the diversity of life, I guess I've expected that from others too. More often than not, most people are content in their own world and to step outside the box is a scary prospect!
I felt like an outsider who had happened upon this family. I knew each of them so well and loved them deeply, but it seemed I was existing in another world at the same time. I felt like a fish out of water! When I fully awoke from my dream I knew that to survive, I must become the natural flowing water, that always takes the path of least resistance. I had to embody water, that shifts and changes, in order to exist in this more dense world. I was to accept all paths of possibility within each soul and choose The Way that allowed me to flow with Easy Grace and Loving Joy......
Story: A few years ago I was teaching a 'Playshop' - 'Magical Inspiration', with a beautiful group of young children. I asked them if they ever felt different and after a little hesitation, everyone of them put their hand up! They looked around in stunned silence and then beamed with delight! In their diversity, they found common unity! The dancing, playing and singing that day, rang with the of harmony of One Heart Song!
This is just a snippet as more shall flow forth another day... Please feel free to share your feelings and thoughts in the comments below....
Infinite Love, Alicia x
Leonardo da Vinci: "Water is the force that moves nature. If we study the way it moves through the air and across the Earth, I believe we can solve all the mysteries of creation"
Dearest Alicia,
ReplyDeleteI connected deeply with you as I read about your attempts to explain your travel experiences to your family many years ago. That was my exact experience as I tried to use words to explain our Awakening the Divine Feminine workshop to my mother and sisters. I was met with uneasy comments like, "Oh, that's nice," and then an awkward silence.
Flowing as water. The answer! Many would scoff at your idea of following the path of least resistance, especially in these Mormon parts. Thank you for your insight, and thank you for writing more of your experiences and insights, just as you said you wanted to when we had our workshop in Utah in January.
With Much Love, Heather